The Answer to a Question I Want You to Know

Hello beautiful friend,

I had a different post lined up for today, but then I ran into a longtime friend a few days ago and something she asked made me realize that I needed to share the answer with not only her, but you as well.

She asked me if I was still doing my AMNW morning TV spots. And I answered no. I also went on to say that I was no longer writing and photographing my Home Grown Chef column for 1859 Oregon’s Magazine.

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I have no idea what happened to the pita bread that was on that cutting board.


Late last fall, in the midst of ramping up for the holidays, I watched myself trying to write and photograph my book, ramp up my photography business, and stay on top of recipe development and photography for 1859 as well as for AMNW. It was while I was on Thanksgiving vacation preparing recipes to be photographed instead of spending time with my family that I realized I wasn’t following my own advice. My own advice to stay laser focused. My own advice to value my time.

I have a terrible habit of always putting my projects/endeavors/goals behind whatever other commitments I’ve taken on (including my darling children) and then I am caught in a mental cycle of begrudging my commitments because I’m not getting to my own projects, but I must attend to those commitments because…I made the commitment…and hence, I continue to put my “stuff” in last place and the cycle continues.

Through the mid-winter months I rolled over in my mind what I knew I had to do and why but I couldn’t seem to make it happen. I don’t like to disappoint people, I have a hard time saying no especially when it’s to turn the focus on myself, and I don’t like saying good-bye.

Sometimes opportunities come our way and we are truly grateful for them but at some point, we’ve learned what we need to learn and it’s time to pass those opportunities along to someone else.

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I’m just as puzzled about it as you.

I loved doing my AMNW TV spots over the years as well as writing and photographing the Home Grown Chef column for 1859 for the past three years. I learned so much from my experiences with them and grew so fond of the people I worked with but the time had come for me to say good-bye.

Somehow, I reached way down deep inside myself, grabbed some courage, and said farewell. Then I made the commitment to invest in myself 100%. To go all in and take a risk on what I’m building up.

Once I untangled myself from my obligations, I felt much lighter; however, on the flip side, I now feel more of a sense of urgency than ever to get my projects ramped up. No excuses.

For you following along, it will be a little bit like reality TV. You’ll get to watch first-hand whether this risk to invest 100% in myself pays off or not. One of my greatest hopes is that, whether I succeed or not, you will be able to take bits and pieces from what I’m sharing along the way and apply them to your own life. Perhaps you will find the courage to invest 100% in something you’ve been wanting to do as well. Let’s do it together!

And heck, if it all goes down like a fallen soufflé, I’ll throw a party to celebrate that at least we tried. So come on and join me.

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I’ve just been sitting here, not moving a muscle, while you dashed back into the kitchen for five seconds.


I subscribe by email to Danielle LaPorte’s #truthbombs which means that daily I receive as Danielle likes to say, “one sentence {that} can change your mind, break open your heart, soothe your soul…” I thought her #truthbomb for today was rather fitting.

Small acts of freedom will really change your life.

So there. Let’s do this!

Much love,

PS: The photographs I’ve posted today have absolutely nothing to do with what I’ve written; however, I thought you might enjoy a little behind the scenes look at what happened during one of my very last photo shoots for my book.



  1. Linda Cohn says:

    I just finished posting a comment to a client of mine on Facebook about how in 1999, I decided to leave my job after 13 years while it was still fun. My corporate job was extremely structured and I was traveling all over the country–which was fine in my twenties and thirties, but then when I became forty-something and almost not making it through child birth with my second son, I knew it was time to make a change. I told my boss I needed to leave my job while it was still fun, that my family was very important to me and that I needed flexibility in my life. After fifteen years, I still work more than forty hours a week as a Realtor, but I am able to be with my family and also give back to the community by volunteering first at Forest Park, then West Sylvan and now Lincoln. Bottom line, you need to do what is best for you, so that way you are able to help and give back to others.

    • Thank you so much for sharing your story, Linda! Leaving your corporate job to start up a business as a realtor is definitely a big risk as well as a chance to invest in yourself. And I know I speak for everyone around here when I say thank you for all the volunteer time you give to our schools. Much appreciated!